life..

You know whats horrible?
Say your completely in love with someone,
someone that opened up your life, turned it around.
Say that someones the only thing in your life,
and you wouldnt want to live a second without them.
But.. what if that person felt the same exact way,
about another person.
What a situation you would be in,
specially when that person has control over
the person you love, and care about dearly,
yet they hate you.
Scared that if you and this person you
love gets into a relationship, that the other
person is going to come in, and take your love away.
Just rip them out of your life.. because they hate you,
and since the person you love is head over heels about that person,
you know it could happen, regardless of what others tell you.
Its kind of like loving someone, and they suddenly
die in a car wreck.. theyre gone, and theres nothing you can do.
Except in this situation, you watch it happen.
On top of that, your bipolar and manically depressive.
Life seems to live off of your sorrow, everywhere youve been,
you are put into love-hate situations, and the end always seems
to be the worst for you.
I used to know a temp. key to my happiness,
then I gave it up.
I found a new happiness, something thats everything to me,

but she can be taken away so easily.a

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Uhh.

Shes broken,
confused, weak,
and on the edge.
She doesnt now what to do anymore.
She knows shes loved, but she
says it doesnt seem to matter anymore.
I dont matter as much as I once did.
Since he left her, she is down.
I want to help her, she needs my help.
But from this point, I cannot do more
than what ive already done.
Shes down and depressed.
I need to show her that she can forget him
and move on from this pain.
But I cant.
I have restrictions, as so does she.
Her parents dont approve of me.
I cant get anywhere close,
how am I to heal.
Shes all I care about, I want her to be okay.
But right now, with the choices shes making
its not getting better.
Shes putting herself in places to see him more,
she cant get over him this way.
I cant help her from so far away.
I dont know what to do.
I know this should be in 'days' but i dont care.
I dont care about anything except for her
I really wish I could help her more.

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d.o.s.

Day a silence
Will be a day indeed
I wont say a word
but my name will speak
Dont worry about me
Ill be there if I breath.
If not, Ill be at home asleep.

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Day of silence
shall be a day of rain
as I lay in my bed
will I breath again?
No need to cry
its just a goodbye
come an october day
memories will fade
dont blame yourself
its not what you made
its just something I cant deal with
Its just something thats to late.

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Safe Place

So here I lay
Todays been a day
chaos corrupts my mind
days like this make me blind.
Forgotten, by the heaven sent
Its my own fault to an extent
Seem like my brain loves to torment.
Depressive swinging on moods
it all causes high temps and attitudes.
I need to run, to my place of shade
the place that helps all the problems fade.
Secrecy is kept, yet can be easily seen
Its the place that I go, the place in my dream.

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What You Do To Me

Tonights been quite 'effy.'
It sorta started off on a bad note,
tears have fallen on a site unexpected.
But it turned out to be abit nice on this full moon.
So far anyways.
So I wrote this.


Im still sitting here, though
I used to wonder in fear
About how this was
and how it would end.
My heads starting to clear
as I look at the moon
and I realize these feeling are true

My love is strong and deeply passionate
As storms of emotions begin pass and it
Awakens my blood.
You run deep through me
Its just so soothing to
have someone
as great as you seem in my life.
I know I may come off confused
but I know that I want you
and I know that I love you
So please, just stay here with me
You make me want to be
all that I can be.
So please.. just stay here with me

Your presence just moves me
You radiate beauty
and its so magnificent
how anyone could be as perfect as you.
You complete me..oh how you do.
My body temps rising
my heart keeps pounding
with every breath Im with you.

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